White light for Baxter..sad news:(

Posted: Thu Nov 16, 2017 9:48 pm

So very very sorry Sandie to see this, totally unexpected I'm shocked I just can't believe it. I have no words. Crying or Very sad

Posted: Thu Nov 16, 2017 10:11 pm

so heartbroken for you. I know how you feel. we lost my special boy earlier this year and it so hard. It seems so unfair .....

Posted: Thu Nov 16, 2017 10:12 pm

So very sorry Sandie
Sleep tight lovely boy xxx

Posted: Thu Nov 16, 2017 10:15 pm

So so sorry Sandie, I can't believe that this has happened. Sleep tight little man xxx

Posted: Thu Nov 16, 2017 10:35 pm

Oh Sandie, I was just checking up on Baxter's progress and all seemed to be under control; you must be reeling with shock. I am so sorry to hear this news.

Please do take care of yourself.

Posted: Thu Nov 16, 2017 10:43 pm

So sorry for your loss. Run free sweet boy.

Posted: Thu Nov 16, 2017 11:12 pm

So sorry Sandie, don't know what to say, Very sad

Master Friend Joined: 28 Jan 2012 Posts: 311 Location: NZ

How devastating for you all, so sorry xxx

Friend for Life Joined: 17 Mar 2011 Posts: 1469

I am really sorry Sandie to hear this sad news. Thinking of you xxx

Friend for Life Joined: 02 Feb 2009 Posts: 2836

So very sorry Sandie, Baxter was such a special boy and the bond between you obvious to all. I have fond memories of our times together. I know you will be reeling right now, like the world has been pulled from under your feet, but hope in time those precious memories will ease your pain. Thinking of you and Doris xxx

Run free Baxter

Posted: Fri Nov 17, 2017 8:12 am

Sandie, I cannot find the words to say how sad I am for you, Baxter really was a lovely boy. We are thinking of you and sending our love. xx

Posted: Fri Nov 17, 2017 9:07 am

So Sorry to hear such sad news Sandie, thinking of you, bless you and Baxter xx

Friend for Life Joined: 09 Jan 2009 Posts: 19103

Thank you for all the messages, texts and pms, it means a lot. Xx

I don’t know where to start. Just a week ago I took him to Bath for his op 😥the last week has been an emotional rollercoaster. As you know there were complications after his op and he had further surgery. The Vet rang me after the op and Bax was fine. I spoke to the night nurse and he was doing good. He had been eating and drinking. I rang again yesterday morning and spoke to the nurse again and all was ok. A little later I spoke to the Vet who wanted to keep him in for the day to make sure he was managing his pain. I went to pick him up about 4 o’clock and he was fine. The young nurse had a soft spot for him and had taken a hairbrush to work and spent most of the day brushing him. Smile

. At home he didn’t want to get out of the car. It took me about 15 minutes to get him out Sad

I feel so guilty maybe I should have given him longer to get out. I left him alone for a few minutes while I got Doz from my mum’s, a few doors away. I didn’t want to bother him as I know he needed to rest, so I grabbed something to eat and sat on the sofa. He gave a funny cough and I glanced at him and he looked ok.....in hindsight I think this is when he passed 😥 I took my plate out to the kitchen and thought I would feed them both. I called him and as I was walking back in the room, I heard a strange ‘whistling’ sound and Doris ran out of the room:(. I looked at him and my heart sank as I knew he had gone 😥. I feel so guilty, he went through so much this last week and I haven’t spent much time with him because he was in the Vet 😥. He was only home for an hour and he was gone. 😥 he never grumbled and was such a happy boy. X

The last few years have been very difficult for me and the only thing that got me through was the dogs and Bax in particular was my rock ❤️. The house is empty, we’ve gone from 5 to just me and Doz. I don’t know how I’m going to cope without him. I just want to curl up in a ball . I can’t thank him enough for being there for me. If I can find the words, I will pay tribute to him in ‘never forgotten’ but I’m struggling at the moment. Thank you all. Xx

Posted: Fri Nov 17, 2017 10:05 am

Sandie, you mustnt beat yourself up about " not being with him enough "....like you say, he was at the vet being tended to - and that was the totally best place for him to be.
He was with you and Doris in the final instant - he was at Home, with his Person and his Best Friend. The Very Best Place to Be.
Take some time, curl up with Dozzie, cry and grieve but never, ever beat yourself up about his last few weeks. We do our very best for our furries - always - and that is exactly what you did.
xxx

Posted: Fri Nov 17, 2017 10:09 am

Sandie - he will never leave you - he is in your heart xxx

Friend for Life Joined: 18 Jun 2009 Posts: 7034

Sandie, I'm so, so, sorry, this is just terrible, your beautiful boy. Can't find the right words. I know how it is to feel bad about all sorts of little things, which seem so big when we're looking after them, because really we just can't bear to lose them and actually they won't even have noticed at all, it's us being silly, so do try not to beat yourself up - that's the last thing Bax wants his Mum to do. Tell him you're sorry and imagine him giving you a kiss. Much love to you and sweet little Doris, and licks from Baxter's niece Lottie xxx

Posted: Fri Nov 17, 2017 10:15 am

Sandie - i know you dont go on to fb much and lots of people dont come on here anymore but you may find comfort in all the messages posted onto my home page for you and Bax

Friend for Life Joined: 09 Jan 2009 Posts: 19103

Thanks Kay. I’ll have a look xx

Posted: Fri Nov 17, 2017 10:51 am

Oh no, I hadn't seen this before now. Here I am feeling so much for you and not being able to hug you or to try and help more than by sending you all my friendly thoughts, dear Sandie. And please do not feel guilty - we almost always do for one reason or another when our loved ones leave, but you can rest assured that you did everything exactly right.

Posted: Fri Nov 17, 2017 10:57 am

Sandie, take comfort from having been with him at the end, at home in a place he loved and with the person he loved so much. I don't think an animal can ask for more than that.

Friend for Life Joined: 21 Nov 2008 Posts: 5746

Oh goodness I've only just seen this latest news Sad

Sandie I'm not very good with words but like everyone else I am so, so sorry to read your devastating news. You did all you could for your much loved boy and I send sympathy for both yourself and Doris. So very sorry Sandie. xx

Posted: Fri Nov 17, 2017 2:18 pm

Really sorry to read this sad news.

Posted: Fri Nov 17, 2017 6:17 pm

Sandie, I am so sorry. I don't manage to come on here much these days, so had no idea Bax was even ill. Now he is at the bridge, and I am reeling with shock.

Bax was such a lovely boy, your one in a million, and I know exactly how you are feeling, losing the rock who saw you through difficult times and was always there for you.

I wish I could wrap my arms around you and make all the pain go away, but nothing is that easy. But please believe your rock is still there - maybe not visible, but with you nevertheless. He will always hold that special place in your heart. He knew he was loved and adored, and loved you as much as you loved him. He would want you and Doz to be happy - though I know that seems impossible right now. Cry for him, grieve for him, but most importantly, live for him, as he lived for you.

Run free, beautiful Bax - forever in our hearts xx

Posted: Fri Nov 17, 2017 6:20 pm

Sandie, there was THE most gorgeous sunset here tonight - deep deep pink bands of cloud, interspersed with the lovely rich dimpsey blue ( Devon word for twilight ). I thought, that sunset is for Baxter..and Sandie...and Dozzie. It was absolutely stunning..... xxxxxx

Posted: Fri Nov 17, 2017 6:38 pm

I saw that sunset Judy too and thought the same. Sandie please hold strong and hold on to the love and time you shared with Baxter.

Lost my friend Sue yesterday to cancer in her mid 50’s, she was a special gentle funny person and I like to think she is with Baxter.
xxxx